Third Day

This morning Madeline finished up the baked oatmeal. Taylor was getting home from work this morning so I made him and I eggs and bacon in a muffin tin. The only problem was I didn't cook the bacon before so it was still raw. So I didn't eat it, Taylor was a trooper and ate one though! Lacey and I napped through lunch, but Madeline and Taylor had sandwiches. For dinner was grilled chicken, Hawaiian sweet bread and salad. Tomorrow we are taking the girls to a horse show because she is obcessed with ponies! I am not sure what I will make for breakfast, but we are attempting to pack a lunch since we will be gone all day and I am making a crockpot meal for dinner!

Day Two of No Eat Out Challenge

Today was day two of our no eat out challenge. This morning was a school morning for Madeline and that means we are rushed. So breakfast was chocolate milk and a peanut butter Kashi bar for her. I had nothing and then stopped by McDonalds for a caramel frappe.. Only half a cheat! Lunch was pb&j and yogurt. Dinner is my mom's baked oatmeal recipe and fruit. We will probably finish it up for dinner! Yum yum one of my favorite things! Not really sure why we have had breakfast for dinner both nights!

30 Day Eat In Challenge

My family eats out A LOT. Atleast once everytime Taylor is home. So I set a new 30 day challenge that we eat every meal at home and it must be homemade. This will be messed up a bit because Taylor will be in Charleston, SC all next week for a fishery school so he will probably be eating out there and he won't be home to eat with us. However Madeline and I are still going to stick to the challenge! Today we made homemade buttermilk pancakes. They were AWESOME! So much better than box mixes. I can't wait to have these again! For lunch we had peanut butter and banana sandwiches with an apple. For dinner we had eggs, bacon and toast. Tomorrow morning Madeline has school so we will probably start our day with Kashi bars!

Spring Outfits

When Madeline was "younger" (aka up until 2) I dressed her like a doll baby. Most things came from Gymboree and of course my favorite place on earth Target. However now she goes to preschool. At preschool she gets paint all over her clothes and plays outside and gets them dirty. That isn't complaining, I am grateful she has such a great time at school! But now I am sitting here looking through my Hanna Andersson catalog thinking about what I am going to get her for spring and I remember that it all gets ruined! The past month at school Madeline mainly alternates four outfits because I don't want her to get her good outfits dirty! So I am trying to decide if I need to accept she needs to wear knit outfits from Target or if it is still worth it to get the better quality outfits that I LOVE. Sigh. Why do sweet little girls have to grow up?

Two Months

My little girl is two months old! She now smiles and chatters away! She loves watching her big sister! And her hair makes her look like Conan O'brien's twin!

The end of the world.

For my two year old getting a baby sister must seem like the end of the world. Today she got home from school and has been exhasted. I put her in her room to take a nap.. two hours ago. She has been screaming nonstop.. for two hours. She is so afraid I am alone with the baby she can't stand it. She screams, "I want my daddy!" The truth is if she took a nap she would feel so much better, but she still fights it. My heart hurts for her. My heart hurts for the frustration I feel for her. Hopefully soon she will realize things aren't as bad as they seem. Until then we will all be praying the wrath of Madeline is over soon.

AHH!

Lets take a minute to be honest. Having two children ages two and under is hard. Is it harder than I expected it to be? Yes! I feel like 80% of Madeline's day she is spent in trouble. I am constantly saying, "Madeline don't do that." "Madeline put that down." "Madeline do you want time out?" "Stop." "THAT IS IT!" I swore when I got pregnant I would not make Madeline feel like I was choosing the baby over her, but I also never expected for her behavior to get so out of control! If the baby is crying she is either telling the baby to shh or telling me the baby is bad. She will run for me to hold her or try to make the baby stop crying so I won't be able to pick her up. It is awful!
Lacey is using laid back although she is much more demanding than Madeline was. When she is ready to eat, she is ready to eat right then. She has been sick for over two weeks now and I am taking her to the doctor tomorrow to make sure she doesn't have a ear infection or anything. The last hour before bed is pure hell with Lacey. She screams and screams for no apparent reason. It doesn't seem like her belly is hurting her, it just seems like she is angry and can't get comfortable. After she does calm down and you move her it starts all over again. Tonight my patience was running a little thin and I stuck her in her crib, turned on her mobile and the humidifer (because he nose is so stopped up!) She has now calmed down but I am not sure if she is asleep.
Two kids is hard. They both need things. I am only one person. I don't have a husband at home at night to help me or give me a break. Sometimes I lose it with Madeline just because she repeats herself 1,000 times, "I want jelly. I want jelly. Mmm I love jelly. I want jelly.." It never ends and I just find myself saying, "Stop talking about jelly Madeline!" It is something I am working on. Today we went to the library for story time and I had no socks, Lacey was still in her pj's from the night and Madeline had dried snot all over her face. We are surviving. Somedays are prettier than others. Last night Madeline and I made brownies together. She was so excited to be doing something with me. Yesterday we played soccer outside. Every night now we read a book together, just me and her. For every not so pretty experience, I am trying to make another beautiful one. I am doing the best I know how. And my girls are too. For that I am grateful.